I can’t reach you, it’s as if you fell a thousand miles below the sea. It’s as if I’m drowning here on earth and you breathe aqua.
I can’t reach you. It’s as if the moon were a sun and the sun were a strange planet from another universe.
Can’t reach through the dark.
You left me holding this undressed wound, without a bandage to cover it. I push and push on this skin and I feel nothing. Where the wound is you make tea, clean in silence, attend a party.
Where the wound is I plan a life that makes sense, looks organized.
Where I am alive, there is a void so gaping wide within that the wound seems nonexistent.
We see to our routines, and carry on as if we hadn’t just been attacked by terrorists. Where my arms were I once held love and my chance of survival increased. Where my skull was before the steel melted, I once held happy thoughts of us together, now your stomach is like the remains from Isis where my life is; a hollow wasteland, burned out and detonated.
This is because you ate the bones of my affection, chiseled them with your sharp teeth, crushed my hope like herbs in a mortar, took the pestle to my dreams, made dust from my kisses.
I know I know, how you love your little bones. How you celebrate your skeleton.
I danced one night with your skeleton, you chose a song whose lyrics I couldn’t comprehend.
Later you told me you hate music.
I thought it was fate,
but we were dancing to your hate.