“Even in this hell fire the lotus flower blooms”
You’ve got to get your hands dirty and dig deep, reach into those dark places, transmute the shadow into radiant light. We need to perform emotional alchemy, like soul surgery. “You gotta go through the mud to bring forth the lotus,” she quotes Siddhartha as I reference the blueprint encoded within a copy of my nuclear memory.
All I can feel in this space of rejection & silence is swirling black lilies, so empty of any light that they spiral into shame circles; circles among circles of intergenerational hurt. The overlap is stunning to behold.
In Alaska they spotted a spiral of light in the sky and attributed it to a rocket, but in my heart of hearts I know it was her, the infinite Gaia. Gaia and the vibrational frequency between us.
I close my eyes while my partner mumbles incoherently and somewhere, perhaps in the lobby outside our door, the junkies are filling their veins with black flowers too. I can hear them thrashing as she stirs in her restless sleep like all the secrets we wish to keep buried as small seeds inside us, until that day comes:
“when the risk to remain tight in a bud is more painful than the risk it takes to blossom.”
“On the surface simplicity
(Swirling black lilies totally ripe)
But the darkest pit in me
And it’s pagan poetry
(Swirling black lilies totally ripe)
Pagan poetry.”
#SylviaPlath’sEpitaph
#Bjork
#Buddha
#Anais Nin